Dear Universe

Dear Universe,

I thought this was going to be my year.  I was feeling so serene at the change over, open to whatever you brought me without strong expectation or attachment.  Then you created a snow storm that canceled my weekend date.  That should have been no big deal but due to child care schedules, it seems like it will take another two weeks to re-schedule.  It made me question his interest in me and wish for some fire and passion.

So a few days later, you fire-bombed me, sending a man who asked me to join him at the local greenhouse, apparently hoping that things would get steamy.  Of course, I had to take off my coat and sweater, not suspecting that he would sit right next to me and proceed to give me a back massage.  It was a little too much heat for a first date, from someone I barely knew.  I thank you for your concern about my shoulder aches.  I made an appointment with my massage therapist.  I did enjoy looking at the banana and palm trees, imagining myself on a Caribbean island, vacationing at a spa with a cabana boy rubbing my shoulders.  But alas, I was on a date with a sweet but overeager dude who hoped for more than a tip.

Yesterday brought more perplexing news.  My ex boyfriend Marc, known to some of you as the wound splitter, and to others as the grey sweat suit guy, wrote me asking for a “dialogue.”  Didn’t I just write a piece about how I feel that “talking it out” is counterproductive?  Apparently you disagree.  It seems as though a woman dumped him and he has since seen the light about how bad rejection feels and wants to make amends.  The cynical side of me, which doesn’t come out often, wonders if he just joined a 12-step program.  Based on his emails, I also conjecture that he believes that he is caught in a karmic boomerang and that his only way out is to get my forgiveness.  My higher self tells me that I should keep an open mind and heart and that I will feel some sort of resolution (there’s that damned word again) from it.  You probably already know that we are having coffee today.

Perhaps you have some grand plan for me, Uni.  I do appreciate you listening to me.  Just to clarify, I am looking for a relationship that has mutual passion combined with an intellectual and emotional connection.  I’m not in a hurry.  I’ll take this bumpy ride with you, and I’ll have fun with it.  At the very least it provides me with a lot of laughs and great blog fodder.  I know I’m learning some good life lessons in the process.  Plus, there’s always yoga to soften the edges.

Eternally yours,

Molly

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